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Day Off Finally
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I really need to do something w my life. I am unhappy and always working. I felt happy when I was going to school and had a lot of friends. Now its all work and no play. I actually feel old. Disneyland in two months where I can be a kid again.

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Work
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Today was an awful day. It really is awful working at the bank. Everything bad I do I get my head chop off for it. I think they forget that I'm new and there isn't a manuel that I can read that makes my job easier. Oh and on top of that my service manager assumes that I knew everything. When I don't know the answer I'm have to look it up on the web site which is 900 pages of just links to other pages. She acts all high and mighty like don't bother her because she is too important. I worked in a smaller branch for one day and the.service manager didn't act like that. She was patient and nice. The branch over there was less stressful within the employees. Today was after. Melvin our new service manager who is suppose to replace Hooper was in charge today. He acts like Lauren who is the service manager who is in charge of all the tellers. He's an asshole. He was on my back the whole day because my work for two days ago was missing. He told me that it was missing and I need to find it. The problem was I didn't know what to find. He said that he doesn't know if it was for all my work that day or for just some of it. Which was a blurry vision of what I should b looking for. To make this story short this guy asked me the same questions over again. Then we learn its because I didn't stamp a paper because I was missing some tickets that took a week to get shipped to me. That was y this asshole was on my ass all day for something he already knew about. neverosay0never

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I feel like this is a pretty horrible birthday. My girlfriend is still sleeping and I told her that we didn't have to do anything pricey but I didn't want to stay home today. When she wakes her lazy ass up we are going to do laundry then come back to this hell hold. I am so tired of being home I been here for two months straight. I feel like crying. I don't like the person I am when I am here alone all day long. I don't have a life anymore. When my girlfriend comes home she's a zombie and goes straight to sleep. Sometimes shes glued to the computer and doesn't pay any attention to me. Sometimes I feel like I don't talk to anyone. I feel desperately alone. Tomorrow will be a better day. Her family is going to come over here and we are going to the cheesecake factory. It's nice to see a fimilar face, it's not like my family will ever visit me.

Writer's Block: Forever young?
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If you were forced to live forever at any age, what age would you choose, and why? What if your memories stopped at your chosen age? How would that impact your decision?

I would want the opposite of this question. If I could chose then I would be 21 forever because I am an adult but I am still very young. I would want to forget my dad, mom and every stranger my mom tainted us with.

Writer's Block: Rotten tomatoes
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What is the worst movie you've ever seen? Did you sit through it or walk out? What made it so dreadful?

The House of 1000 Corpses is the worst movie so far. I walked out of the movie theather with an upset stomach. The combination of a trashy girl rolling around in dead bodies and trying to be sexy. All the characters were disgusting. The movie wasn't even scary don't attempt to watch.

Finally my big break
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I got the job as a tell for Wells Fargo. I am so excited because my girlfriend and I really need this right now. I am so glad that I actually got a good job. I am not going to work at a fast food or retail store anymore. I am going to get paid though a salary wage plus commission. I didn't know teller get paid commission. How strange but I am so relieve. My birthday is next so I am not sure what my girlfriend has for a plan. I am not very excited to turn 21. I know I probabbly won't drink myself to sleep like the old me use to. I am not looking forward to even drinking. I am sure that I will try a mix drink though.

Writer's Block: Snark, who goes there?
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Have you ever said something to an online friend that you would never say in person? Do you think it's easier to discount real feelings when a relationship takes place largely online? Can the emotional disconnect become habit-forming?

It is easier for me to talk to someone online than it is in person. I believe you make real connections with people in person.

2nd Job Interview
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Well i just got home from my secound job interview. I hope I did good I felt like I got along with the store  manager well. She told me she'll call me this afternoon and she gave me her business card. I just didn't get a chance to talk to Gail the other store manager. I hope that doesn't blow my chances. I believe if I do get a call back, we would get arrange another time where I can get a chance meeting Gail. I just have to play the waiting game. I hate this, I really hope she calls me. That Wells Fargo looked like the white house and everything inside was made out of marble. I was very impressed. I really liked the store manager Lauren. She was really nice. Damn I need a job. Well it was weird that I got out early because I meet a girl. She was pretty and really friendly. Everybody could tell that she was new to the area. She was asking people how the fare ticket works. I told her everything she needs to know. We exchange information and I told her that I would add her on facebook. She said we should hang out sometimes. So I think I made a new friend. I need friends I miss everybody here. I felt like I got comfortable at on place, made friends then left again. None of my family is ever going to visit me. I thought Jaime was going to visit but I am guessing that she is not. I can never get in  touch with that girl. It's not that big of a deal. I just feel lonely sometimes. I need something that keeps me sane. If Wells Fargo doesn't hire me then I don't know if I will ever get hired. Job searching is so hard..

Yesterday
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Well yesterday I felt like I did good. After the group interview the HR lady walked us to the door. Everybody shook her hand and said, "Have a good day" or "thank you." I was the last one to shake her hand. I gave her a firm handshake and before I could say anything she whispered very softly, "'ll be calling you." I was really surprise because I felt that I did okay on two questions but on the last question I felt that I did a great job. So hopefully it will work out well. It was an experience to get there. I got yelled out by the bus lady who took me that because I was standing too close to her bus. I didn't think it was a big deal but obviously according to her it was. She was nice to me after she found out that I was from Orange County. Then afterwards she was talking about her prom. She said that was the happiest days of her life. It's crazy how this is a small world. I always meet someone who is from the south. Coming home was another experience. I ran into a homeless man and an either very drunk man or a mentally ill man. The homeless guy and the drunk guy got into many agruments. People like that I completely ignore. They are too unpredictable. I have had alot of experiences with those men. I grow up taking the bus so the best way of dealing with those people is being polite and ignoring them. I don't give them the chance to have a conversation with me. Today I slept in till 11 am. I haven't slept like that for a while. I felt good but I was really tired. My knees were killing me last night. My dog Nicholas keeps me awake as well.

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Well I have a job interview for Wells Fargo today. Thank god because my girlfriend and I need the money. I feel bad staying home when she works twelve hour shifts but I also feel frustrated. I know the job market is slow as hell but I really had no idea. I am already ready. I have my make-up on, I folded up all the blankets, I did my hair, I have everything ready-resume, salary history, references list, letters of reccomendation, and residental history. I need to do is put my work pants because I took them off. I was about 3 hours early now only two. I am going to leave at 11:35 which is early. I am deciding if I should make lunch or not. I don't want to make lunch because that will mean I would have to use the public bathroom. The interview is going to be one to three hours long. So it's a long interview. My damn girlfriend woke me up this morning. I know she didn't mean it but I have been awake since 6:30 this morning. I was on facebook till 8 then I got ready. That is the fastest I have ever got ready. Well I am going to watch a movie now

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